Thursday, August 12, 2010

'when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the Rock that is higher than I'


what to say to a group of mothers & daughters, a small flock of chinese girls, a big flock of young ladies, a room full of homeschool parents, and how to answer the questions that might be asked? 
when you're emotionally panting and you just want to stop and let your heart and mind catch their breath, but you know that time waits for no one... when you have far more questions than you do answers and the upcoming life chapter looks overwhelmingly blank, but yet confusing at the same time... when your heart feels unsteady... when you feel too tired to limp to the Throne of Grace and your arms feel too weary to open up the Book of Promises to receive the nourishment you know you need... when you've been stripped bare of all that you were working towards... when the tears come easily 'cause your heart is bruised and tender... when you feel gun-shy and the enemy's web of fear is trying to bind up your soul... when you keep waiting for Sonshine to burst through but fog continues to hang heavy over your soul and cloudy in your eyes... when you wonder if the waiting ever ends...


when you get alone and quiet to gather your thoughts... to write out the feelings that have been pushed under the surface... when you force yourself to eat of the Bread of Life... to not close your heart in fear... to not hide in the shadows of distrust and panic... to choose to wait and choose to be thankful for the many good things that fill your life... to remember that He always proves faithful in the end...


then, you can rest in your heart. your questions are not answered. your future is still a question mark. you still wish for a whole day to just be somewhere where you can hear nothing but sounds He created. but your heart is at rest. it is sustained and nourished by promises.


True promises.
 
That He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it.That He will hold my right hand, and He tells me to "fear not."
That the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Truth, the Helper, the Comforter is with me and for me. That His ways are far far above mine. And that much better.
That His grace is sufficient.
That even the youths shall faint and grow weary, the young shall fall. But He gives power to the weak. He renews the strength of those who wait on Him. They will run, and not be weary. Walk, and not faint. To them that have no might, He increases their strength.

He increases my strength. He is sufficient. I do not understand His ways in my life always, but knowing in my heart of hearts that He is faithful... that is enough.
 

Strength for today, bright hope for tomorrow...

Great is Thy faithfulness,
Lord
unto
me.

6 comments:

Beloved's Bride Carmen said...

Lovely!!

Katie said...

:) Amen.

TexasLady said...

Strength for today, bright hope for tomorrow...

One of my favorite lines in the song :)

Theron said...

Couldn't help but remember this song after reading...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDgLzhofceo

When the weather is cloudy sometimes it's enough to just say to Him "Oh, lead me..." and then be at peace...

Ryan said...

What is the "Bread of Life"?
You said, "force myself to eat of the Bread of Life." That phrase has a lifetime of meaning to me, but what does it mean to you?

Marianna said...

Ryan, I am so sorry I am just now publishing and responding to this! Yikes! That's what becomes of people who get to busy to blog: they miss important things.

Anyway, to finally answer your question, I suppose I meant it to mean the Word of God, the Bible: 'man does not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God'. Sometimes you have to force yourself to read the promises and get the nourishment your soul needs, you know? What does it mean to you?