Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Sometimes you're just tired, and you don't know why.. and you feel your eye trying to twitch, both of them actually, and everyone seems to have everything together and you're still lost, and you just want to cry and you don't know why and you're not even normally 'a crier' and even a cup of coffee doesn't help.

And you realize how far you have to go and how uphill the fight and how you sometimes don't even know how to fight.  And you're not sure of anything much.

Except you know that your marching orders are to keep walking, keep marching, keep giving and keep receiving.  Orders to keep resting, depending, trusting, and keep on knowing that He is God.  One foot of faith in front of the other.  One deep breath of rest and trust after the next.  Every lie that says you are responsible to change anything or anyone by human strength, defeated with the simple truth that you and your circumstances are completely dependent on Him.

Then, the wretched neediness is a gift.  A gift because He promises to come in our neediness... it is not when we are full, but when we are empty that God-size miracles occur.  It wasn't until the Red Sea was an impasse that the Lord parted it, and it wasn't until they were out of water that it came from a rock and out of food that manna came from heaven.   

"Yea, they spake against God; they said, Can God furnish a table in the wilderness?
"Behold, he smote the rock, that the waters gushed out, and the streams overflowed; can he give bread also? can he provide flesh for his people?

"So He fed them according to the integrity of His heart; and guided them by the skilfulness of His hands."   (Psalm 78:19,20,72)

God can and will furnish a table in the wilderness, bring water from a rock, and manna from heaven... but only when we are needy and dependent.

Then grace comes... and beautiful testimonies like these put everything into perspective:  This Was Grace

And then the neediness is seen as what it is:  a showcase for God's great work and glory.


4kids1mom said...

Puts things into perspective, doesn't it?! What a powerful video and testimony of faith and God's love. Wow. I had my children watch the video too - so I wasn't the only one crying and feeling blessed. Thank you for posting. ~D

Ryan said...

I can't change anyone else. I am not them. I am not responsible for them. I am responsible for only one person myself. I can remain open to God changing me as He wills.

But even that requires grace.

And even the grace to desire that grace is His gift.

Be at peace with where you are, my friend. God has done a lot of hard work to bring you here. I trust it is worth it.

Amelia said...

I know how you feel, believe it or not I do. I think we're all getting it in one way or another.

There have been some things that have taken the cake. I'll have to write on them later when God's timing and wisdom allow. I do hope you come up with some goodies for us all in your reading audience too Mar-Mar. OH wow. Do I ever.

*grin* love you, momio

Laurie said...

This is beautiful! I totally relate.

Love you! :)